There is a few days left for me to stay here in Boston.
It's been over a month since I once again came back to Boston.
The stay really made me think about many things --about myself, who I am, where I belong, my family, work and the future...
It is so tough to make a decision when it comes with something you need to choose and lose.
There is always something you need to leave behind to choose what you want...
I missed Boston and felt that something was missing in my life last two years. Even though I was working happily and living in Tokyo surrounded by my family and lots of friends with full of laughters, I somehow thought about Boston...I really can't tell why.
It caused me to quit the job, but no regrets so far.
I guess that's my character. "You never give up until you really experience it" I didn't want to keep longing for Boston, complaining being in Tokyo and thinking about what might have been happened if I didn't come back to Japan two years ago...
That would have been hell, really.
Now I think after I have been in Boston for over a month doing what I wanted to do, that I will accept anything happen to me.
When I get a chance to stay in the United States, I will take it.
When I have no choice but staying in Japan, I will try to settle in Tokyo.
Either way, I need to choose and lose something, but the challenge this time meant so much to me. It cleared out my unsettled mind.
I rally thank everyone who supported me.
I sometimes got crazy and blank because of a lot of concerns and negative events...
Lovely friends, thank you for just being there for me and listening to me.
Yeah, that's you.